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Zen - Efil's God
15 June
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I'm not straight. I'm not gay. I'm not bi. I'm not old. I'm not young. I'm not masculine. I'm not feminine.

I AM biologically male.

I'm not smart. I'm not dumb. I'm not talented. I'm not talentless. I'm not special. I'm not boring. I'm not diffrent. I'm not the same. I'm not handsom. I'm not ugly. I'm not funny. I'm not

I WAS born in England.

But I'm not English. I'm not American. I'm not Canadian. I'm not anything. I'm not a good friend. I'm not a bad friend. I'm not someone you can depend on. I'm not someone who will leave you alone. I'm not opinionated. I'm not void of opinion. I'm not a cat person. I'm not a dog person.

But all my pets ARE cats.

I won't go out looking for trouble. I might not walk away from it if it's in front of me. I'm not a role model. I'm not a bad influence. I'm not a druggie. I'm not straight edge. I'm not horny.

But I AM thinking about you naked.

I'm not going to be around forever. I'm not going to just 'go away'. I'm not alive. I'm not dead. I don't feel good. I don't feel bad.

But my heart IS still pumping blood through my body.

There's plenty of stuff I am. To myself. And plenty of other stuff I am to others. Read my journal entries and form your own opinion of me. Because really, mine doesn't matter at all.
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